The girl studied 2 weeks before the N level exam. With the teachers help, she managed to get promoted to 5N with best 3 subjects of 10 points. During her life in 5N, she slept in most of the lesson. The girl was very unmotivated to study as most of her classmate were same of the kind. Either busy sleeping or talking. Not realising the important of studying she joined in. Months later, she was done with prelim. Looking at the results, she was shocked passing only 2 subjects. The result was a wake up call for her, she realised that she need to start studying. The girl sat for her O level exam, she thought that she can do most of the question and she thought everything will be a smooth sailing for her. But when the O level result was revealed in febuary, everything was wrong. When she received her result , she was in total disapointment. Getting a result of L1R4 29 points and a D7 for science, she was unable to get any single course from the poly. The girl was totally lost not knowing what to do and where to go. After thinking and much persuasion from her teachers the girl decided to repeat and redo her O level. She lost her confidence in everything. Although the girl decided to repeat but she still cant accept the fact of repeating. The girl applied for DAE admission. Waiting impatiently and with great hope she went back to school.
She came back to school. It was the school common test week, she sat for the test after not studying for months. The girl did not do well but manage to pass. 1st day when the girl entered the class she felt uneasy and wierd. The feeling of lonliness was there, all her friends from her formal class had left her. Although in her class there were some familar faces but she still felt alone. Sitting at the corner of the classroom with eyes staring at her the girl is like mute remaining quiet the whole day. DAE results was annouced, none of her application were successful all her hope of going to poly had vanished. The girl still went out with her ex-classmate but all she felt was a great embarassement. Months later, the girl opened up she started to mingle around with her classmate and made new friends. Lonliness is gone. The girl started to study with them for exams and test. With much help for the first time round the girl managed to complete her D&T coursework. There are times that the girl wanted to give up but her classmates were there to motivate and push her along. At times she was on the urge of giving up, she thinks that history will repeat itself again. With the help of her teacher, her confident was regained slowly. Her prelim result improved as compared to last year but it wasnt good enough for her to get into poly. All she had was 2 weeks to buck up before the final. The girl was very weak in chemistry, 2 days before the paper one of the teacher helped her but times was against everything. The girl learnt something but theres still thing that she don't understand. Praying hard that those question will not come out. After her chemistry paper, she was worried as there were quite a number of question she was not sure. Physics was her next killer paper, a day before the paper one of her teacher helped her in the evening clearing all her doubts. Again she was confused after the paper, she fear that she might not be able to make it. All negative thoughts flashes in her mind, she is worried about the result. The O level had finally come to an end. The girl took some time to forget about the results. But recently someone just reminded her and she starts to think again. Someone asked her what poly course she wants to go? and what she want to be in the future? The girl may look confident but deep inside she isnt at all. Her mind was blank, there isnt any answer. For now she dare not think far, the girl only hope that she get into a poly. In January the result will decide her future...
