The changes

As i was thinking in deep thoughts
and i started to realise the changes.
Not being what i used to be.
Cant really be blamed,
with this type of environment
the amount of pressure greatly increased.
feeling more stressed up than before,
even then, not feeling this when taking the major one a year back.
Things are getting unmanageable,
without helps from them,
it is a disaster,
and won't be able to make it till now.
feeling guilty after what i did.
in this current state,
how long am i able to withstand?
There will sure come a day where we need to be apart.
fearing for that moment.
need to find a solution to it fast.
will endure to the end,
as long as i'm still kicking alive.
Going to give the best shot for the upcoming one,
so as to proved my ability and not make one's effort down...