fuck up damn prelim

prelim have started. SS was a big bomb, geo went on smoothly. Math paper 1 was damn easy paper 2 was so so. expected to score quite well for paper 1 but now after hearing wat i dun wish to hear i dun think so liao shit me i cant get top this time say bye to my A1. feeling so fuck up damn emo now. seriously im hating myself there isn't a time that i feel satisfied. no matter how hard i study result will also be so sucky. so wats the point of studying. its the 2nd yr why cant i just get good result am i that dumb. people who study 1 yr lesser than me and their results are better. maybe im just suck at studying. i have no forte!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!