sch sux

Back to school. Its the 3rd day in sch. Everything seriously sux. Feeling so bored and wierd and of cos embarrass. u wont understand my feeling until u have gone thru wat i am going thru now.
We feel wierd to go down to the canteen during reces and we will just stay outside the staff room and look at each other to pass time. As usual i'm always sleepy during lesson time. its been 3 day and pple are still asking me this qns. eh... u retain ah? pls lar of cos i retain will i want to wear sch uniform back to ftp pple pls use ur brain can and stop asking me this qns super irritating leh everywhere i go pple will start asking. I know i'm stupid thats why i retain!! Although i still have frens in sch but then they arent as close as wat i have last yr. I have received a wake up call everything single thing was so true and its really time for me to buck up or else everything will be like last yr again . REGRETING ONCE AND BE IN THIS STATE ITS A PAINFUL EXPERIENCE..

I'm having this confusion in my mind, i really cant decide which journey to go. its really driving me crazy.
I am currently waiting for my DAE admission to poly. If my application approve i dunno to stay in sch and study for few more months or to go to poly.
I have pple telling me since the DAE admission isnt the course i really wants so why not sit for this O level is only a few more months left get a better result and go to the course i want.
I have another pple telling me this if the poly wants u just go in try to like the course and see wat can u do there what for waste 1 more yr in sec sch.
I really dunno which shld i choose if my DAE admission is successful i dunno which route will be a better choice for me. sometimes i think that just get to 1 course and get a bloody diploma and try to love it. But then sometime i think that if i go into poly with the course i dun like i will sufer for 3 yrs. 3yrs leh not very short hor. I really dunno wat to do now, can someone tell me which is a better route?