WAKE UP!!! STRESS!!

just a few more days to april, mid yr exam is coming. just woke up frm my slacking land. hope theres enough time for me to prepare for mid yr... homework is a never ending story, haven finish this stack the nxt stack come. homework is just driving me crazy, dunno how long more can i tahan. STRESS ah!!! some subjects dunno wat the chapter is talking abt at all. can anyone tell me when can i ofiicially step down frm the stupid CCA??? i already cant cope with my sch work and how do u expect me to make time for CCA? from this week onward no more slacking for me, trying my best to stay awake in every single lesson and put full concentration on wats the tcher teaching. i just realised that i no nuts abt physic, and have been stoning during physic lesson since january. go to find help frm tchers to clear all the doubts b4 mid yr arrives. i really cannot tahan liao, i'm going to get crazy a few months more, but i know that escaping frm these problems isnt the solution. well, just gonna face the facts and hang on there till end of yr. mid yr die die i must get gd result to shut up some tcher mouth so that they wont complain to my parents.
Do i think i can get gd result?
How confident am I?
i dun think i can but will try my best
I have no confident at all!
Concentration is all i need in cls, looking at my cls do u think i can concentrate???
although my cls not bad lar, but at times they just very selfish lar, some pple there have KNS attitude. feel like killing them, they can do last min work but i cant. i cant possibly ask every single tcher to repeat wat they teach in cls in the morning and repeat it to me after sch rite? tried last min work last yr, it almost killed me!!! LAN LAN i wont do last min work lor, fearing for a few months for ur result whether u will promote or retain is just simply a terrible feeling!!!
consistency listening in cls is just the thing, seriously, last min studying is not a fun thing!!!
i need someone to force me to study, whenever i open my books, i just feel like slping. where the hell did my self motivation gone to??? i am not motivated at all!!
I JUST NEED MORE CONFIDENT AND MOTIVATION!!!

The bitter and the sweet come from the outside, the hard from within, from one's own efforts.